Playing Catchup

Ok so I am a horrible blogger, oh well. We are in our house and I have to say I love it here. Is it even possible to be in love with a house? I think it is. The kids are SO MUCH happier, K has been eating lots. They have been playing together, not arguing, we've been going for walks to the lake. Lots of stuff.They love their new school,the bus!! OHMY! Do they love the bus! It is a crazy huge difference I have seen in them this past week.And I thank GOD! The other day before school, they were taking FOREVER to eat, so when I came in the kitchen , I caught them watching and talking about the birds. At first Kyle just wanted to get his BB gun out and get the quail, but we told him no! It was awesome to see them interacting and doing something cool. Then we were all sitting at the table Thursday I think and there were deer in the back field!!

I have been unpacking,painting, and then not doing anything ; ) I have a hard time not sitting by the window and staring outside all day. Yesterday we got a little bit of yard work done.There was a HUGE section of Catmint, with some puny little tulpis trying to peek out,so we took the catmint out. I am sure it will comeback, since it was all dry and seeded,but thats okay.
Then we cleaned out the front little flower bed,there must be atleast 45 Iris bulbs in there,SO MANY!!
I went to Targe' and got a bread maker, it hurts my hands too much to knead the dough, so in an effort to make our own, I went and got one. Yesterday I made 2 loaves of Potoato Bread and a batch of Cinnamon Rolls, which were HECKA good!!!
Today I think we are going to have italian herb bread. It makes the house smell SO good.
I think I am going to get my sewing machine out, I have sewed anything since we got here, and my sewing room looks awesome, so I may spend the day down there. I got some really good pictures at the lake yesterday, so when I go into town I will take my card with me and get them on disk, since I cant find the cord.
Yes I actually have to "go into town" : ) WalMart is 13 (i think) Miles away, Safeway is like 9.There is a little store here, but their prices are pretty high.

Anyway, I was hoping to visit family over Spring Break, but I dont think thats going to happen right now. But we will be visiting in July. Then the kids will get to see Nana and Papa, and everyone else we all miss so much.I seriously try not to think about it, I talked to Sean the other day for his birthday and it just about killed me to hear his voice, but not be able to see him.I just wanna see all my babies, Sean,Triston,Emily,Sar,Miley. I feel like major elcrapo for not even meeting Miley yet.And not being there to help Mom and Dad move.I would give a million dollars to hug my family right now.
But Choices I made put me here, and there is nothing I can or would do about the move. I feel HOME here,just without my family, if that makes any sense.
Anyway, stuff to do today, and I better get on it.

wowzer

Well I know I am not too good at keeping this up to date.But oh well, take me or leave me,lol.
Ok well our 10 year anniversay came and went, as did christmas,both kids birthday and new years!
Now we have 20days until we close and get not only the keys to OUR house, but the keys to our future as well!!To be totally honest ,it doesnt feel real.While I am so excited and have been counting down everyday, it still doesnt seem real to me. I have color picked out, and all that stuff but it still doesnt quite seem real, ya know?
I cant even begin to say how thankful I am to the people who helped make it happen. Seriously when we moved here I though we would be with K for a year. Now I realize that would be impossible, someone would come out mamed!
This week has been a LONG one of snowing and shoveling and snow days!!!I sure hope spring is peaking around the corner!
Mike is leaving for some training for 2 weeks, we havent been away from each other that long since TheArmy!! But a mans gotta do whata mans gotta do!
Anyway thank you guys for leaving me comments, I enjoy all of your blogs!!

Home

So since I was a little girl I have always tried to bargain with God.Please God if you dont let me get caught I'll go to church,please God let me be whatever Please God do for me and I'll do for you. It shouldnt be that way.

And I am trying so hard right now to not do that.

We put an offer on a house yesterday, basically it has it all.I wont goin to details until we know if our offer was accepted. Please pray for us.And for me,for my sanity and patience. I am trying not to make promises to God today, but this one thing I know I can promise and stick to,this house or any house He gives us I promise I will make into a home. OUR home. I will respect it and the preciousness of getting to have it. I will make it a loving and safe home for my family. I will take care of it. I will be thankful and am thankful now for even getting to TRY.



Today is also Kyles birthday. My babyboy is 9. NINE!!! I only get to have him for 9 more years (if I'm lucky ,he will love me the rest of the time,lol) It is so weird.I am going to go into his class around 2 and sit with him.

I miss everyone at home.

Ugh

Well since I have been a bad blogger, I guess I should update.We had our first snow!! The kids LOVED IT! I haveto admit,I did too. : )
Next Blog will be about my Surrogacies, andour search for our Home!!
Until then...........................................

We are OFFICIALLY looking for a house!!! After being married 10 years(well in a few weeks) We are becoming actual grownups,lol.It is every word imaginable, scary ,exciting, strange,and SO EXCITING!!My FG friend DP is our realtor,Thanks so much miss diary princess!!We looked Monday andI just didnt feel anything was "home"you all know thats what I am looking for. I really dont think I could be happy in town.I want land with animals,room for dogs and goats and barn cats! Even if there is just a house on this property now, we can make the rest happen.
There are actually people in this world who want you to be happy.A very strange concept for me.That a STRANGER(in this case a loan officer TG)would want you to be able to achieve your goals and attain happiness,that girl is getting a GOODY bag from somewhere GOOD when my house closes!
When I told my Dad we could start looking he said "Be careful,it isnt a car and you cant trade it in." Lol,thanks Dad for the encouragement.I hope that we can see them soon,I miss my neices and nephews SO BAD. The kids miss Nana&Papa so much too.

Happy

I feel happy today,and it feels SO frickin good.

Home?

I posted this on MjFarm, and wanted to put it here too


I guess basically what/where is home. And what is the meaning of home? To you does home mean where mama is ? Or where you honey is? Where you own a home or where you rent? Is it 100 acres in the woods? Or a town house,can you really make your"home"anywhere?
I am hoping that when we are done house hunting,that it will feel like home for me. Cause right now I am not sure really where that is. I can say it is where my kids and dh are,but really we are in limbo because home is somewhere I havent found yet.I am not trying to complain,we have a roof over our head and my kids are warm.But where is home? Is it what I make it? Or is it somewhere waiting for me?

So I guess I would like to know what does home mean to YOU?


We are searching,praying,hoping, and wanting so bad!! I am sure we will run into a few snags,as wekind of already have,but thats normalright? Anything worth having is worth working/fighting for.

Today is Pregnancy and Infant loss awareness day. Light candles tonight at 7 in honor of losses many many people around the world have endured.


I am going to be lighting 3candles, tonight 1 for Anans big brother, and 3 for the triplets.

I had a really good day,butI'll write more later when I have more time.