Whewww!

Not breast cancer. Gosh that sounds like sucha dirty word. Nasty mean and hateful. Yuck. But what I have are firbercyctic breast tissue.Guess what the remedy for it is? Slow down on the caffiene. I can do that, you can have pepsi and you coffee but you cant have my life,lol. I have lots to blog about, our 3day weekend, our new pup and school starting, but I think I will spend the fews days I have left with the kids home with them. I am sure I'll be here Tuesday morning, whining about how much I miss them,lol. Hope you are all doing GREAT!

boobs

Well I have a mamogram today. Please keep me in your thoughts for peace and whatever else I am going to need. Lately I have had sore tatas, and I thought well maybe since Aunt flow will be visiting soon that is why they hurt. God knows nobody pulls on them and I dont have a kid around to breastfeed. Well I waited for them to stop hurting and waited some more, but they seem to be hurting more intensly and more often. So I was feeling my tatas and found a knot if you will in my righty that felt warm, and thought Oh great, lovely lumpy and saggy! LOL. Well I called to make an appointment and they couldnt get me in until Oct. I asked them what they thought I should do, they recomended I go to Urgent care and have a mamogram set up. So I am waiting for them to call me with my appointment to have my poor little girls squished in torture device. The Dr. at urgent care said it doesnt seem to be the characteristics of breast cancer, but she wants me to have them squished because after all you can never be too sure. She also said that drinking caffiene can cause hard spots, so no more coffee for me or pepsi. Or atleast in very small quantities and most DEFINATLEY not every day. So I am going to start buying coffee lotion and smelling the CRAP out of it.Anyway thats my update in my little corner of the world. So I dont care how young or old you are PLEASE squish 'em! Heck make it a game let your signifigant other squish 'em for you.

A year ago.....

Wow, well we have been in Washington for a year.In some ways it feels like this has always been home, in others it feels like yesterday that I was bawling my head off crying and sobbing saying to Mike I cant do it, I cant leave my family.It feels like yesterday that I was avoiding the look in mom and dads eyes, knowing they were disappointed in me for leaving them. Even now, I feel guilty. Guilty for putting us first. But you know something everything happens for a reason.Bad things sad things scray things and happy things. God has a plan behind all of that.
I can honestly say that while I was saying WE WILl HAVE A HOME BEFORE NEXT CHRISTMAS, I was quietly thinking in my head, will we really? What if we dont? It would have been alot easier to run back to California. LOADS easier, if we didnt get this house we probably would be beack there now.But we arent, we are here.
Working growing living being. Being a family, and counting on each other.
We did it!! Together, we havent had to borrow from family, we havent had to go without. God had his hand in this the whole time. He made the way.He blessed us, with some good people by putting them in our path, even the ones who turned out not so good, I am thankful for. Cause there was a lesson there.
So I do not regret all the months living in ghetto land, with sex in the back yard by drunk teenagers and yelling people running down the street. That rough road led us here, that road led us HOME.