PS Piss Off

I read this blog: http://mom-o-matic.blogspot.com, there she has taught me to cary Gin in My Apron Pocket.(dont tell anyone! )((total joke I do NOT have any of that. I dont even know if I have have tasted it))

I have realized I dont think any of you know ME. Not that that is important but, I dont really know all of me either. I would have to describe myself and life song as Bitch by Meridith Brooks
I AM all of these things. I am a mom,wife,friend,surrogate,Auntie, and I am ME.
So in homage to MomOMatic, ONCE a week I am going to blog about being a better ME. Doing something for ME. Other than that it will just be a bitch fest,LOL j/k~~
So from now on this blog will consist of different things, different MEs. The crabby, sappy,happy,pissed,disgusted,angry,sad ME.Take it or leave it or just piss off, either way I dont care.Yes I want you to know that I am actually nice, and not just a synical hag, but hey I cant have it all.
Anyway today went like this,rainy,being told I was mean,repeating myself 8095699 times. To the SAME child.I like my job. Really I do, but working with dead people is SO much easier.SO SO SO much easier, but not quite as rewarding. I think that with it being the end of the school year kids are getting ansy to break free of the concrete walls, and cafeteria smell and be outside.Poor kids. They just want to be kids!
M is gone out of town, for work.It has been SO quiet! The kids get off the bus, we have snacks do homework and have dinner vegg a little, play Fact or Crap(thanks Weston) and go to bed.Kinda nice, but i do miss my man.: )
Anyhooters, I am going to go have some coffee, shut up I dont care if it is 7pm. I want it and I can have it. Then when the kids go to bed, I am going to curl up on the couch and Tatt on my FarmGirl Patch.I'll show ya when its done.Its gonna be purty!

5-18-08/Fishing

Well I love fishing. In the past two days I alone have caught 20fish.Only 3 big enough to keep. That is countless times of reeling and casting back out.But I have yet to bait my own hook. It is so nasty to watch the worm scooch up and spewforth the crap the have been holding in the whatever they hold their crap in. But hey I will do it,probably sometime this week. Cause I will be fishing alone I will have no one to do the dirty work for me. I know, I am sucha pansy ass.
These last couple of weeks have been REALLY good,very busy. I got to stay at MaryJanes Farm, with some ladies who I really admire.Heather and I went junkin a few times, and so did Grace and I. I always find good stuff. There was a Vintage Bread box/coffee&sugar holder. All chrome or whatever for 40 bucks , I found one in ValueVillage to 5.00! Then Our town had a charity yard sale, and I got a huge box of quilt tops, from 1943 in their sent envelopes.I got a box full of tatting practice peices with a newpaper in German. And a huge box of tea cups.
Our garden is almost all the way in, I have a few things that need to be put in today.I have some things up front, but until we get some trees cut down, we arent putting anything that needs sun out there.
I have come to realize that I am a big girl, and I am starting to really like it here. I have my own life here,I have friends.I have a J O B that I really enjoy,this house and the lake are amazing. Not every one can walk to their fishing spot.I can honestly say that I am actually happy.
So for you who tell others I am a loner,recluse or whatever you are wrong. I am not a loner , I just dont need others to validate ME, I dont need people up my butt all the time or to define who I am. Your words are nothing to me,they did hurt, but not anymore. I dont care what you think,you preach Gods love? and then you go around showing the REAL you. Total contridiction, but hey you have your way and I have mine.
I decide who I want to be friends with.
Dont be bitter.

5-12-80

Yipiddy Frickin DOO!! I am 28! Holy crapola I am almost 30? Seriously is that even possible?

Anyway, this morning I went and had my hair cut.I chopped it OFF! I have aboy haircut.



Just kidding wanted to make sure you are paying attention. It is just above my shoulders, and since we have been here it has gotten so curly. I dont get that but whatever. I wont get into the things I cant begin to understand. Then I went and had coffee with my favorite Heather. Then Mikey took me out to lunch at the Tomato Street Grill. Dang good!! Then I stopped at the Recycling Center and got 3 full gallons of free paint! SCORE! Then I came home and waited for the mail lady, cause my favorite Aunt Debbie got me a gift card for BuggyBarn, but it didnt get here. BUT I did get some AWESOME mail. 1rst a Birthday and Mothers Day card from Sweet Anan. He signed his name in a card that said I love you Mom. Keeko also said he told his Grandmother he is coming to America to see his American Mom.lol Only a little over 1 month and a half.

Then I got a Card from Hannah and Cody that said thanks for their bday presents.And a card from D&H signed by both of them. H said 28! OMG I remember when you were a baby! They are so awesome. Did I mention the 25$gift card to SB?

So now I have 6 kids at my house all of them but 2 are mine. The boys are hellians, I just noticed there is one mor eoutside. I better go wrangle them. Anyway my day has been pretty good. Thank you to everyone who wished me a good day.

5-6-08

Well this weekend I went away for a Farmgirl Retreat. In 1 way it was almost too long of time to spend with other women, but on the other hand when I came home I almost wish I could have stayed longer. I told Heather I want to come back here, but alone next time.LOL I am not a people person for the most part, and 11 other women almost did me in. Oh sure it was fun and nice. We ate,I came away inspired, knowing how to Tat, (it is beautiful), I came away with some new friends, and a new respect of people,women. I came away with ideas for me one day. What I want.What I need. I want acres for me to have an outside kitchen, and wall tent. I want to sleep outside in a canopy.

So this week I am making a list of things I want for THIS house, I am looking at it as we will never move, although I know that is unlikely. A gazebo,with room for a twin bed or hammock, a small fire pit, and outdoor living space.I have also moved our bed into the yellow room, I could sleep/wake up in such dark. So my sewing room is in the wood room, I am going to start fixing it for me. As I told Heather, I am going to "ShabbyChic" the hell out of it. I am going to paint everything BRIGHT white, and bring in pale pinks greens and blues

Hmmm

Well, I have a sunburn. I have to tell you it feels FanFrickinTastic! We burned up the extra dry grass Sunday.It was alittle frightening.My poor Kyle has my scared heart. My poor baby.
Autumn had a play last night. I got the PERFECT! blackmailing video. As she was walking up to the microphone she kept tucking her tail between her legs! She had a leopard weewee! OMG! It was CLASSIC Autumn.I love that girl SO much!
I am hoping to get the garden started soon.One of my blueberry bushes DP gave me died,well stupid me didnt know you needed 2 to have them grow. I am sucha dumbA@% sometime. So I guess I gotta go buy another one.
I have the twins pillow cases almost done. I am embroidering their names on them. It kind of feels full circle. When I was pregnant w/ them, their Mama taught me how to do it. I cant SERIOUSLY cant belive they are going to be 5!! OMGosh. They are so big and grownup. D is trying to get them into spanish emersion school. I think those kids might possibly be the smartest 5yo ever.
My sweet Anan will be here spending a week with us in our house! First week of JULY! Wowza, I still remember them leaving my house, and crying and Keeko telling me in my ear, I promise to bring you back your baby boy.I promise.I love that family. Even Grandma is coming! The kids are excited.
I am still missing home. And serisouly thought I was going to have abreakdown last wee. I think Mike wants to go back to Cali.So I amgoing to keep praying that God puts us where He wants us and when.
My apple tree is getting teenytiny buds on it. The catmint reseeded itself. Cleon has starts for me, and there is supposed to be asparagus out there somewhere, and rasberries.There are SO MANY bulbs out there too, peonies,iris,tulips and daffodils.
I got called by the district and got my first J O B ..
I have lots to do today, and wanted to update, incase anyone actually cares.

Playing Catchup

Ok so I am a horrible blogger, oh well. We are in our house and I have to say I love it here. Is it even possible to be in love with a house? I think it is. The kids are SO MUCH happier, K has been eating lots. They have been playing together, not arguing, we've been going for walks to the lake. Lots of stuff.They love their new school,the bus!! OHMY! Do they love the bus! It is a crazy huge difference I have seen in them this past week.And I thank GOD! The other day before school, they were taking FOREVER to eat, so when I came in the kitchen , I caught them watching and talking about the birds. At first Kyle just wanted to get his BB gun out and get the quail, but we told him no! It was awesome to see them interacting and doing something cool. Then we were all sitting at the table Thursday I think and there were deer in the back field!!

I have been unpacking,painting, and then not doing anything ; ) I have a hard time not sitting by the window and staring outside all day. Yesterday we got a little bit of yard work done.There was a HUGE section of Catmint, with some puny little tulpis trying to peek out,so we took the catmint out. I am sure it will comeback, since it was all dry and seeded,but thats okay.
Then we cleaned out the front little flower bed,there must be atleast 45 Iris bulbs in there,SO MANY!!
I went to Targe' and got a bread maker, it hurts my hands too much to knead the dough, so in an effort to make our own, I went and got one. Yesterday I made 2 loaves of Potoato Bread and a batch of Cinnamon Rolls, which were HECKA good!!!
Today I think we are going to have italian herb bread. It makes the house smell SO good.
I think I am going to get my sewing machine out, I have sewed anything since we got here, and my sewing room looks awesome, so I may spend the day down there. I got some really good pictures at the lake yesterday, so when I go into town I will take my card with me and get them on disk, since I cant find the cord.
Yes I actually have to "go into town" : ) WalMart is 13 (i think) Miles away, Safeway is like 9.There is a little store here, but their prices are pretty high.

Anyway, I was hoping to visit family over Spring Break, but I dont think thats going to happen right now. But we will be visiting in July. Then the kids will get to see Nana and Papa, and everyone else we all miss so much.I seriously try not to think about it, I talked to Sean the other day for his birthday and it just about killed me to hear his voice, but not be able to see him.I just wanna see all my babies, Sean,Triston,Emily,Sar,Miley. I feel like major elcrapo for not even meeting Miley yet.And not being there to help Mom and Dad move.I would give a million dollars to hug my family right now.
But Choices I made put me here, and there is nothing I can or would do about the move. I feel HOME here,just without my family, if that makes any sense.
Anyway, stuff to do today, and I better get on it.

wowzer

Well I know I am not too good at keeping this up to date.But oh well, take me or leave me,lol.
Ok well our 10 year anniversay came and went, as did christmas,both kids birthday and new years!
Now we have 20days until we close and get not only the keys to OUR house, but the keys to our future as well!!To be totally honest ,it doesnt feel real.While I am so excited and have been counting down everyday, it still doesnt seem real to me. I have color picked out, and all that stuff but it still doesnt quite seem real, ya know?
I cant even begin to say how thankful I am to the people who helped make it happen. Seriously when we moved here I though we would be with K for a year. Now I realize that would be impossible, someone would come out mamed!
This week has been a LONG one of snowing and shoveling and snow days!!!I sure hope spring is peaking around the corner!
Mike is leaving for some training for 2 weeks, we havent been away from each other that long since TheArmy!! But a mans gotta do whata mans gotta do!
Anyway thank you guys for leaving me comments, I enjoy all of your blogs!!