5-6-08

Well this weekend I went away for a Farmgirl Retreat. In 1 way it was almost too long of time to spend with other women, but on the other hand when I came home I almost wish I could have stayed longer. I told Heather I want to come back here, but alone next time.LOL I am not a people person for the most part, and 11 other women almost did me in. Oh sure it was fun and nice. We ate,I came away inspired, knowing how to Tat, (it is beautiful), I came away with some new friends, and a new respect of people,women. I came away with ideas for me one day. What I want.What I need. I want acres for me to have an outside kitchen, and wall tent. I want to sleep outside in a canopy.

So this week I am making a list of things I want for THIS house, I am looking at it as we will never move, although I know that is unlikely. A gazebo,with room for a twin bed or hammock, a small fire pit, and outdoor living space.I have also moved our bed into the yellow room, I could sleep/wake up in such dark. So my sewing room is in the wood room, I am going to start fixing it for me. As I told Heather, I am going to "ShabbyChic" the hell out of it. I am going to paint everything BRIGHT white, and bring in pale pinks greens and blues

Hmmm

Well, I have a sunburn. I have to tell you it feels FanFrickinTastic! We burned up the extra dry grass Sunday.It was alittle frightening.My poor Kyle has my scared heart. My poor baby.
Autumn had a play last night. I got the PERFECT! blackmailing video. As she was walking up to the microphone she kept tucking her tail between her legs! She had a leopard weewee! OMG! It was CLASSIC Autumn.I love that girl SO much!
I am hoping to get the garden started soon.One of my blueberry bushes DP gave me died,well stupid me didnt know you needed 2 to have them grow. I am sucha dumbA@% sometime. So I guess I gotta go buy another one.
I have the twins pillow cases almost done. I am embroidering their names on them. It kind of feels full circle. When I was pregnant w/ them, their Mama taught me how to do it. I cant SERIOUSLY cant belive they are going to be 5!! OMGosh. They are so big and grownup. D is trying to get them into spanish emersion school. I think those kids might possibly be the smartest 5yo ever.
My sweet Anan will be here spending a week with us in our house! First week of JULY! Wowza, I still remember them leaving my house, and crying and Keeko telling me in my ear, I promise to bring you back your baby boy.I promise.I love that family. Even Grandma is coming! The kids are excited.
I am still missing home. And serisouly thought I was going to have abreakdown last wee. I think Mike wants to go back to Cali.So I amgoing to keep praying that God puts us where He wants us and when.
My apple tree is getting teenytiny buds on it. The catmint reseeded itself. Cleon has starts for me, and there is supposed to be asparagus out there somewhere, and rasberries.There are SO MANY bulbs out there too, peonies,iris,tulips and daffodils.
I got called by the district and got my first J O B ..
I have lots to do today, and wanted to update, incase anyone actually cares.

Playing Catchup

Ok so I am a horrible blogger, oh well. We are in our house and I have to say I love it here. Is it even possible to be in love with a house? I think it is. The kids are SO MUCH happier, K has been eating lots. They have been playing together, not arguing, we've been going for walks to the lake. Lots of stuff.They love their new school,the bus!! OHMY! Do they love the bus! It is a crazy huge difference I have seen in them this past week.And I thank GOD! The other day before school, they were taking FOREVER to eat, so when I came in the kitchen , I caught them watching and talking about the birds. At first Kyle just wanted to get his BB gun out and get the quail, but we told him no! It was awesome to see them interacting and doing something cool. Then we were all sitting at the table Thursday I think and there were deer in the back field!!

I have been unpacking,painting, and then not doing anything ; ) I have a hard time not sitting by the window and staring outside all day. Yesterday we got a little bit of yard work done.There was a HUGE section of Catmint, with some puny little tulpis trying to peek out,so we took the catmint out. I am sure it will comeback, since it was all dry and seeded,but thats okay.
Then we cleaned out the front little flower bed,there must be atleast 45 Iris bulbs in there,SO MANY!!
I went to Targe' and got a bread maker, it hurts my hands too much to knead the dough, so in an effort to make our own, I went and got one. Yesterday I made 2 loaves of Potoato Bread and a batch of Cinnamon Rolls, which were HECKA good!!!
Today I think we are going to have italian herb bread. It makes the house smell SO good.
I think I am going to get my sewing machine out, I have sewed anything since we got here, and my sewing room looks awesome, so I may spend the day down there. I got some really good pictures at the lake yesterday, so when I go into town I will take my card with me and get them on disk, since I cant find the cord.
Yes I actually have to "go into town" : ) WalMart is 13 (i think) Miles away, Safeway is like 9.There is a little store here, but their prices are pretty high.

Anyway, I was hoping to visit family over Spring Break, but I dont think thats going to happen right now. But we will be visiting in July. Then the kids will get to see Nana and Papa, and everyone else we all miss so much.I seriously try not to think about it, I talked to Sean the other day for his birthday and it just about killed me to hear his voice, but not be able to see him.I just wanna see all my babies, Sean,Triston,Emily,Sar,Miley. I feel like major elcrapo for not even meeting Miley yet.And not being there to help Mom and Dad move.I would give a million dollars to hug my family right now.
But Choices I made put me here, and there is nothing I can or would do about the move. I feel HOME here,just without my family, if that makes any sense.
Anyway, stuff to do today, and I better get on it.

wowzer

Well I know I am not too good at keeping this up to date.But oh well, take me or leave me,lol.
Ok well our 10 year anniversay came and went, as did christmas,both kids birthday and new years!
Now we have 20days until we close and get not only the keys to OUR house, but the keys to our future as well!!To be totally honest ,it doesnt feel real.While I am so excited and have been counting down everyday, it still doesnt seem real to me. I have color picked out, and all that stuff but it still doesnt quite seem real, ya know?
I cant even begin to say how thankful I am to the people who helped make it happen. Seriously when we moved here I though we would be with K for a year. Now I realize that would be impossible, someone would come out mamed!
This week has been a LONG one of snowing and shoveling and snow days!!!I sure hope spring is peaking around the corner!
Mike is leaving for some training for 2 weeks, we havent been away from each other that long since TheArmy!! But a mans gotta do whata mans gotta do!
Anyway thank you guys for leaving me comments, I enjoy all of your blogs!!

Home

So since I was a little girl I have always tried to bargain with God.Please God if you dont let me get caught I'll go to church,please God let me be whatever Please God do for me and I'll do for you. It shouldnt be that way.

And I am trying so hard right now to not do that.

We put an offer on a house yesterday, basically it has it all.I wont goin to details until we know if our offer was accepted. Please pray for us.And for me,for my sanity and patience. I am trying not to make promises to God today, but this one thing I know I can promise and stick to,this house or any house He gives us I promise I will make into a home. OUR home. I will respect it and the preciousness of getting to have it. I will make it a loving and safe home for my family. I will take care of it. I will be thankful and am thankful now for even getting to TRY.



Today is also Kyles birthday. My babyboy is 9. NINE!!! I only get to have him for 9 more years (if I'm lucky ,he will love me the rest of the time,lol) It is so weird.I am going to go into his class around 2 and sit with him.

I miss everyone at home.

Ugh

Well since I have been a bad blogger, I guess I should update.We had our first snow!! The kids LOVED IT! I haveto admit,I did too. : )
Next Blog will be about my Surrogacies, andour search for our Home!!
Until then...........................................

We are OFFICIALLY looking for a house!!! After being married 10 years(well in a few weeks) We are becoming actual grownups,lol.It is every word imaginable, scary ,exciting, strange,and SO EXCITING!!My FG friend DP is our realtor,Thanks so much miss diary princess!!We looked Monday andI just didnt feel anything was "home"you all know thats what I am looking for. I really dont think I could be happy in town.I want land with animals,room for dogs and goats and barn cats! Even if there is just a house on this property now, we can make the rest happen.
There are actually people in this world who want you to be happy.A very strange concept for me.That a STRANGER(in this case a loan officer TG)would want you to be able to achieve your goals and attain happiness,that girl is getting a GOODY bag from somewhere GOOD when my house closes!
When I told my Dad we could start looking he said "Be careful,it isnt a car and you cant trade it in." Lol,thanks Dad for the encouragement.I hope that we can see them soon,I miss my neices and nephews SO BAD. The kids miss Nana&Papa so much too.

Happy

I feel happy today,and it feels SO frickin good.