Hmmm

I am not really in a blogging mood today, but I feel I have neglected it. Not much going on, it is starting to change seasons, which makes me want to run for the hills!! The sunny hills, you know the ones where LC and Heidi and Spencer are... What you dont know what the hills is .. Oh my.........

Every day is a gift

So I thought about blogging a I miss my kids post. And I do, dont get me wrong. But they needed to get back in school. They missed their friends and they missed playing. Because I kept them locked up in this house tighter than fortknox and didnt let them out all summer.They ate nothing but PJ&Js and water. They deperatley needed to get away from me.

Ok just kidding, they didnt even want to go back to school. They wanted to sleep in, and have cereal and wear PJs all day. But I made them go to school.They wanted to ride the bus. I wanted to take them. They won. BUT Autumn did want me to meet her at school to walk her to her class. So I have a 2nd grader and 4thgrader.Weird! They were wondering this morning why I made them hot breakfasts, I told them it was getting colder, and they needed the brain food for school. They want to go back to cereal, I will win that one. I miss them alot, but it makes the afternoons so much sweeter. I love to have their snacks waiting for them and being at the door when they are off the bus. Makes me feel so June Cleaver-ish ; ) . They laugh at my aprons though.

I have been wanting a big dog for a long time, since we moved. So Friday we went and looked at a DutchShephard. She was beautiful, not in a looks way, but she seemed to have a sweet spirit. So we brought her home.She walked on a leash, would listen SO WELL. Loved on us, played with MightyMouse, she liked Kris and the kids. OUR kids. Then she snarled and growled and lunged at a 3 yearold who was minding his own business. So needless to say I couldnt keep her. I could not take a chance on her maming a kid. She was WAY too protective . So like a baby I bawled when I took her back, and told them please make sure she doesnt go to a home with small kids. They are a no kill shelter, so they will keep her until she is adopted. I was so bumed. But I couldnt with good concience keep her.It was her or the kids?

Anyway, so after my little scare last week with my tatas, they are much better, I havent had coffee, 'cept for a 1/2 cup sat and sun. And even those small amount I could tell the difference. I am going to get some Vitamin E , which is a suggestion from a FarmGirl. I have to tell you most o the ladies over at MaryJanesFarm, are the best. . I love it over there. I joined a yoyo swap and a pillow case swap and an apronswap.All but the pillows are done.Friday it will all be sent off. If its done I want it out of here, so I dont mess it up or the kids dont accidently spill on it.
I have been busy making Jam. We picked 30 gallons on Plums. MsCleone got 15 gallons and will sell the jam at her craft sale. Now we have a loaded apple tree. I have to get more jars to do applesauce and apple butter. Today I have to ride out to Rearden and pick up AuntDebs quilt. and then the rest of my day will be home, I want to get done today: Mop the floor, clean upstairs bathroom,my room and sewing room needs organized again. But even with my mess I am blessed. I have everything I could ever need. My kids, my husband a roof over our heads, food in our bellies
friends I know I can count on. What more do I need?

Whewww!

Not breast cancer. Gosh that sounds like sucha dirty word. Nasty mean and hateful. Yuck. But what I have are firbercyctic breast tissue.Guess what the remedy for it is? Slow down on the caffiene. I can do that, you can have pepsi and you coffee but you cant have my life,lol. I have lots to blog about, our 3day weekend, our new pup and school starting, but I think I will spend the fews days I have left with the kids home with them. I am sure I'll be here Tuesday morning, whining about how much I miss them,lol. Hope you are all doing GREAT!

boobs

Well I have a mamogram today. Please keep me in your thoughts for peace and whatever else I am going to need. Lately I have had sore tatas, and I thought well maybe since Aunt flow will be visiting soon that is why they hurt. God knows nobody pulls on them and I dont have a kid around to breastfeed. Well I waited for them to stop hurting and waited some more, but they seem to be hurting more intensly and more often. So I was feeling my tatas and found a knot if you will in my righty that felt warm, and thought Oh great, lovely lumpy and saggy! LOL. Well I called to make an appointment and they couldnt get me in until Oct. I asked them what they thought I should do, they recomended I go to Urgent care and have a mamogram set up. So I am waiting for them to call me with my appointment to have my poor little girls squished in torture device. The Dr. at urgent care said it doesnt seem to be the characteristics of breast cancer, but she wants me to have them squished because after all you can never be too sure. She also said that drinking caffiene can cause hard spots, so no more coffee for me or pepsi. Or atleast in very small quantities and most DEFINATLEY not every day. So I am going to start buying coffee lotion and smelling the CRAP out of it.Anyway thats my update in my little corner of the world. So I dont care how young or old you are PLEASE squish 'em! Heck make it a game let your signifigant other squish 'em for you.

A year ago.....

Wow, well we have been in Washington for a year.In some ways it feels like this has always been home, in others it feels like yesterday that I was bawling my head off crying and sobbing saying to Mike I cant do it, I cant leave my family.It feels like yesterday that I was avoiding the look in mom and dads eyes, knowing they were disappointed in me for leaving them. Even now, I feel guilty. Guilty for putting us first. But you know something everything happens for a reason.Bad things sad things scray things and happy things. God has a plan behind all of that.
I can honestly say that while I was saying WE WILl HAVE A HOME BEFORE NEXT CHRISTMAS, I was quietly thinking in my head, will we really? What if we dont? It would have been alot easier to run back to California. LOADS easier, if we didnt get this house we probably would be beack there now.But we arent, we are here.
Working growing living being. Being a family, and counting on each other.
We did it!! Together, we havent had to borrow from family, we havent had to go without. God had his hand in this the whole time. He made the way.He blessed us, with some good people by putting them in our path, even the ones who turned out not so good, I am thankful for. Cause there was a lesson there.
So I do not regret all the months living in ghetto land, with sex in the back yard by drunk teenagers and yelling people running down the street. That rough road led us here, that road led us HOME.

Warning LONG post

Well what can I say besides I am glad to be HOME. The kids and I left EARLY thursday morning for california. We knew we would drive to Weed, Ca and spend the night. I swear the kids were PERFECT that day. Friggin perfect. We stopped in Kenniwick,Moro ( a town i will drive to again soon for my own lonley vacation) Bend and somewhere else before we got to weed. But MY GAWD when we got to our hotel we were STOKED!! Ohhh to be out of the car, I was half tempted to stay at the hotel a few more days just to give my ass a break. So anyway we swam our hearts out at the hotel and had PBJs for dinner. and the kids were out by 730!

We got up friday at 545AM!! their choice not mine. We got to Aunt Debs about noon where were we got back in ther car for Olive Garden, Autumn and AuntDebs "place". At about 3 we decided it was time to surprise Papa. Well somehow he had an idead we were coming, but they were still happy to see us. Unbelivably happy.

So I sent out a message on Myspace to let everyone know we were down. Guess who called? Um no one from our "fam" cept mikes 1 aunt Amy, who is the best anyway.
, I got to see all my neices and nephews.So thats what I wanted

So on this little vacation I went a few places, mostly AuntDebs and moms. Saw Gmay May and Amy, and my sweet friend Corie and Shelbie. Got to meet my neice Miley, who looks EXACTLY like her sister, who I swear should have been a redhead, she has that evil grin on her face ALL the time!!

Dad ended up in the hospital and Mikes mom ended up in the physc ward.Mike and Kris came down and then we came home. But we brought 3 stow aways. My Nephews Sean, Jimmie and Tricia. I am SO glad they came home with us. Totally HAPPY.It was nice to have a baby around and nice to have Tricia around again , I missed that crazy bitch.And let me tell you she is nutso.In a good way. We took the kids to the Water Park, and they had fun. I sat out and held the baby the whole time. She got to spend some time with the kids and they enjoyed SO much having Sean for almost two weeks.

My poor Kyle cried all day tuesday. It sucks to see your kids hurt.So all in all it was a drama filled, BS smelling grand ol time.I got to see the people who actually give a shit about me and the kids.BUT I was SO happy to be home.I am so happy to be home. So we are getting back into our routine of early bed and daily bathing,lol.

Vacation?

So I decided it was time to go to california, for Vacation. Well I am telling you now I will NEVER call it a vacation. More like a month long headache.
Lots of it was good, but lots of sucked ass.
I am tired and will fill ya'll in on the juicy details later.