New Blog

I am going to try a new "blogging" style. I am going to blog like I am famous. Blog like I am P Dubb. Martha Stewart style with some F bombs mixed in.. Just kidding I wont drop any F Bombs. ( I am trying to work on my potty mouth) Its a muther f'n process let me tell ya!!

So today I went and had coffee with a friend and then went and drove around a Cemetary
http://www.fairmountmemorial.com/. This one to be exact. I dont know if I ever blogged about it or told any of you about it ( remember I am pretending there is someone reading this ) I have always had this weird recurring dream. It is hard to explain the feeling or impression or smells..I am weird yes I smelled in my dream anyway.. In my dream I am walking around a cemetary that is basically built into a hill. Well in this dream there are white walls, cold heavy feelings. When my parents were here I found this place. I have been there in my dreams, remember before I moved here to this great state I had only visited once... Never to this Cemetary though. I wanted to cry and felt VERY heavy and cold and strange.... I wouldnt go back alone..(Remember again that I have emballmed people, heald human remains in my hand,buried people,cremated people. Been alone with Many a dead) and Never been scared or had any weird feelings. This is not the case of the Mausoleum. When I went for the first time, I am TOTALLY weirded out. I have strange pictures of Orbs and other weird things. Again I wont go alone.
Today I took my friend K.I am SO GLAD she went with me.I took mike and he wasnt feeling it. Well I told K it is a beautiful place but I am not comfortable going there alone anymore. So She went.. She got it, the opressing hard and heavy feeling. When I go there it is obviously a sad place. But this opression is something I have never felt before. Heavy and burdening.Beautiful and absolutley frightening.Black and White. There is so much sadness and also so much happiness there it is amazing.
Then I took her for a drive through the upper/older part of the one across the street. I cant wait for a warmer day when we can walk around. It was 28 today.. cold cold cold.

This Peom Comes to me, I did not write it, I am not sure who did.. But I love it

Death is nothing at all.
I have only slipped away to the next room.

Whatever we were to each other we still are. Call me by my old familiar names. Speak to me in the same easy way you always have. Laugh as we always have. Laugh as we always laughed at the little jokes we enjoyed together. Play, smile , think of me. Pray for me.

Life means all that it ever meant. It is the same as it always was. There is absolute unbroken continuity, Why should I be out of your mind, because I am out of your site?
I am but waiting for you, for an intervval, somewhere very near,just around the corner.

All is well. Nothing is passed. Nothing has been lost.One day it will be as it was before, only better. Infinately happy, we will be one, together forever... .. . .

Ok Ladies and whom-ever else happens to be reading. I know some one is reading, because I see you are coming from MaryJanes site.. Leave me a comment, anything random,your favorite christmas memory, fav TV show. Whatever and I will send you a one of a kind Tea Bag Clip with a surprise tea..... First 3 comments and 1 Random comment gets one.....

SOA

I read the creator of The Sons of Anarchys' blog. Kurt Sutter is his name.This man is a genius. This show is amazing. I told someone I watched SOA. Want to know what they said? Why would you watch that trash? Um have you seen it? I wondered.. Its every quiet suburban houswives fantasy. Atleast it is mine : )
That show is freakin awesome. The season ends tomorrow. Boohoo and wont be back on until Sept 2010~~ Come on that is WAY too far away.

Anyway I have lots to catch up on... as in 2 of my nephews were here for 4 days, I camped out this weekend in like 20degree weather and loved it,and I am going to FINALLY put some stuff in my Etsy tomorrow, But I am tired,answering phones and making copies is hard work I'll tell ya..

BTW Peach Flavored mini cigars ... smell amazing (i'm just sayin')

8-23-09

Wow where did the summer go? Its almost gone and passed. It went with a flash. I wont lie there were days I thought would never end. Like the 2nd time driving straight through 15 hours to Cali. Or waiting for my sister in law to call and tell me to come see my new angel nephew Liam. All in all it has been a good summer. The kids would probably say it was boring,no trips to the Water slides a couple times a week this year.
Next year we are planning on taking a real family vacation.Maybe to the coast. Maybe to the hills in Montana. Who knows, but I do know my time with my kids is slipping by a little too quickly these days. They are growing up so fast, almost 9 and 11. IT is crazy because yet again I remember being those ages.
We did buy a camper for our family. It is a 71 Breeze. I cant find any info on it anywhere.But it is cute. Not quite as "vintage" as I might like, but she is cute. Her name is Betsy and I hope to be joining Sisters on The Fly soon.
We have a major project for us,we layed down new floor in the living room. Mike and I make a pretty good team I think.
We finally got Highspeed internet back. It wasnt as hard as I thought it would be to live without it.But it is defenatley conveniant when I think of something to google,lol.

On the road again....

Well once again it is summer time. I am almost all packed for our little vacation. the kids are stoked and I am excited to see the kids.
I have been so busy with the birds the kids and working. Work has been a little stressful, we lost another student about 2 weeks ago. the desperation in teens is very hard to grasp. I cant even imagine losing a child, ugh.
I got called a M f'r yesterday by a student,nice huh?
Mike doesnt want us to leave him. The plan is to be back before the 4th this year.I will spend it with my family,my man and my kids.
I am looking forward to this trip, and even the drive. I am weird I know. 16 hours in a car w/ kids. They are awesome though.
See ya

MemorialWeekend

GUESS WHAT I GOT???? 2 Ducks,and 4 chickens!!! YESSSS.Finally,its about dang time!
Things have been good my friend Alee came down.I had lunch with a friend last monday. The garden will be in this weekend andI got newbabies!!! I love them, the ducks follow any of us when we make kissy noises and say duckduckduck.I LOVE IT!!
I have been sleeping AMAZING(LY)OUTSIDE either in the hamock or the tent.I am flithydirty and I can feel the dirt in my shoes, its actually pretty nasty. But I came to Kris' to get Kyle and Kris took Mike golfing.... I am off to head home and check onmynew kids!!

words

Best words I heard today, I luff you muffin, From my dad.
Best words I heard yesterday, Happy Mothers day Mama, I love you
Funniest words I head in a LONG time, I'm going to pee on you...